Losing motivation instead of weight

These past two weeks have been extremely difficult for me. I have been super busy with work, and I have had no control over what I have been eating.

I work in student housing, and for the past two weeks I have been required to eat every meal with my staff. My go-to meal has been a salad, some melon, and some roast beef deli meat… every. single. day.

I have been so tempted to cheat, but so far I have been pretty good.

But I haven’t been losing. In fact, I have actually gained. This morning I weighed in at 193.8, but a week ago I was 192. I have lost so much motivation.

I have about 5 days left until I am done with this phase, and then I am moving into a transitional phase. I am hoping I can get to 190 but I am not sure.

My weight loss may be done for this program, but I did lose 23lbs.

Not hitting goals

Not reaching goals definitely sucks. I was hoping to be at 190 by today, but I weighed in at 195.8 this morning. I started over 3 weeks ago at 216, so I guess I should not complain. But my weight loss has slowed down considerably.

August 31st is my last day in this phase, and then I start a transition phase. I have not had carbs, fat, sugar, or dairy in almost a month. I am a little bit concerned about adding it back in now.

Prior to starting this program, I had success with the 21 day fix. I am thinking that after I finish this program, I might go back to it. I will be in a lower weight group, and it will help me with portion control and figuring out how much I should be eating. I will definitely not go back to eating anything that I want.

I guess it is time to set some new goals!

August 15th – 193 lbs

August 20th – 190 lbs

August 31st – 185 lbs

Wish me luck!

 

Steak day

Well… I am stuck. I have been at 198 for the past few days, and I am starting too get frustrated. I texted in my weight this morning to my coach, and she said it is time to do a steak day.

So what is a steak day?

It is a day of starvation and then a steak at the end… No… seriously.

I am not allowed to eat anything all day, and then for dinner I can eat a big steak and an apple for dinner.

Despite my better judgement, I am going to do it. I told myself when I started this program that I would do it all the way 100%. And so far I have not cheated. Let’s see if this actually works.

Now Entering Onederland: Population – ME!

This morning I finally landed in Onderland! I stepped on the scale and saw 199.3, and I could not be more excited! I could not wait to write a post saying I was in onederland.

I have to admit, I have been struggling to get in enough calories these past few days. It has not been intentional, I just have not had much of an appetite. I definitely need to make sure I eat some more tonight to hit my calorie goals.

So far today I ate a 6 oz steak, an apple, and 4 oz of chicken breast. I am thinking and orange and maybe some veggies would help me hit my goal for the day. Maybe I will even have two oranges…. I’m so bad I know….

I am struggling to come up with goals that I actually feel like I can hit. I have 25lbs left that I want to lose, but I am not sure how realistic that is. Right now I am thinking:

190 by August 14th. I know this will be hard because that is 9 lbs in 9 days, but a girl can dream!

180 by August 28th.

174 (goal) by September 5th.

 

 

Two weeks and 16 lbs down

This is the fastest I have ever been able to drop weight, and I have to say I feel pretty good. I don’t feel hungry nearly as much as I did when I first started this meal plan. Tonight, I am facing a real struggle – a potluck.

My diet is so restricting that I cannot eat anything at the potluck. The only thing that is safe for me to eat, is the veggie tray that I brought with me.

All I have wanted is pizza for the past two weeks. And of course… there is pizza at the potluck. I am going to force myself to stick to the fruit and veggies but a smell of the pizza won’t kill me!

Goals were meant to be beaten

I am on day 12 of this whole no fat, no carb, no sugar life. I can’t say it has been easy but I can say that it is getting easier. A few days ago I set a goal of being at 202 by Wednesday. Today, I weighed in at 201.9. I am so close to onederland that I can taste it!

This weekend was rough for me. I was volunteering and to show appreciation they bought us food. Donuts and Pizza were on the menu. As much as I wanted to go for it, I was able to stick to my guns and ate the fresh fruit and cucumbers that I brought with me.

I deserve an award. Anyway.. time to set some new short term goals!

A week from today – 198

By August 14 – 190

Overall goal (August 31) – 174

I have 30 days to lose 27 lbs. I know it is not likely going to happen, but I am going to try my best!

Day 10

Hello all! Today is day 10 of phase 2 and I am happy to say, I am 25% complete with this phase. I have not had gluten, sugar, dairy or fat in 10 days and I feel like I am dying! On the plus side, I am down to 204.6 lbs as of this morning! My weight loss is definitely slowing down, but that is to be expected I suppose.

The plan that I am on promises that I will lose 20 lbs in 40 days. I am hoping to lose closer to 30-40 lbs in that time, and I am already down 10 lbs! My mini goals are still as follows.I am pretty sure I can hit them both! The overall goal is going to be a challenge, I am not sure I am going to get that.

202 lbs by Wednesday (5 days from now)

199 lbs by August 13 (15 days)

Overall goal 174 by August 30th (32 days)

Happy Scale!

I have started using this app called Happy Scale. Has anyone used it? It’s awesome! You set up how much weight you want to lose, and then it breaks it into milestones. It gives you predictions and changes colors when you complete a mini-goal milestone. I love this app, it really shows me how much I am losing. Below are some screenshots of the app, it’s free, you should get it!

 

Speaking of losing, I weighed in at 206.1 lbs. this morning! Last week on this day I was 216.5 lbs. So now I need to set another couple of goals.

This time next week – 202 lbs.

August 13 – 199 lbs.

I want to keep the goals possible/still challenging and meaningful.

Cravings

Have I  ever mentioned that I get hangry? I don’t know if my name gave that away… anyway… I am having some mega cravings.

Tonight, my cousin asked me what she should do for dinner. My response? Order Chinese food, a pizza, and get some donuts. Because those are the three things I would KILL for right now.

Now I know none of those things are healthy… I get it. But it doesn’t stop me from wanting to tackle to students eating pizza in the cafeteria to steal their food.

I guess this post is just a rant about how hungry I am, but I know I am doing this for a reason. I will go back to eating my blueberries and wishing that they were donuts.

Just another manic Monday

Hello everyone! It is an exhausting and rainy Monday here in Rochester, NY. But I cannot help but feel accomplished. Last night I did a full meal prep, and came up with some awesome recipes for myself!

I weighed in today at 208.6, which means I am down about 8 lbs from last Wednesday. Not too bad! I am proud of myself. So a little bit about myself, and how I gained weight…

I was born into chaos and all I knew as a child was chaos. I was fed foods full of sugar and highly processed, and I never knew that vegetables could be purchased fresh – I had only eaten canned veggies. I ate to control the world around me, and was always a heavy child.

When I was 15, my mother was murdered. I was heartbroken, and in that year, I gained almost 30 lbs. This year is 10 years since that happened, and I am still carrying that 30 lbs plus some.

So in my 25th year, I am setting out to lose 25% of my weight. It is time to shed what held me down, and to no longer let those experiences define me.

A 25% weight loss puts me at 162 lbs by my birthday at the end of October. It will be my lowest adult weight. I am hoping I can reach the goal, but I know it will be a lot of work. Each pound dropped helps to heal the emotional pain I dealt with as a young adult.

Here’s to health and happiness!